Thank You All For The Well Wishes! Â I seriously meant to leave this time until my talk with my doctor and Bruce Vilanch. Â Of course the lovely sentiments from all you BetteHeads was heartwrenching enough!
This has been the worst month of my life, no exaggeration, and I’ve had to make some hard decisions. Â My site may never be the same, but it’s mine, and will always be my number one hobby through thick and thin.
Maybe one day I can tell ya’ll what happened, but first I’ll have to regain my memory and be able to live through the trauma again….no exaggeration. Â Just understand how much you all have pulled me through and given me hope again!
PS: Love all the new sites!
And Long Live Bette Midler, Bruce Vilanch, and the BetteHeads
by Kim Cowgar
“Is it possible to find hope again?” I asked.
He simply said, “Yes.”
“And I will hold hope for you
Until you are able to find it again yourself.”
I was in the midst of the days
Of bone-weary, aching darkness
Almost certain I would never see
The colors or feel the lightness.
There were days of stubborn solitude
And nights spent on the ward
Where the chemical gods
Tried to make me whole.
If only it was that easy…
Quiet in the safe room with him
Gave way to tenuous moments
Of finding the emotions within
And letting them be felt on the outside.
Trust was built and tears flowed
As fears and secrets were unbound.
With chemicals and spoken words
We began to forge a path towards wholeness
With my guide still holding onto the hope
That my heart and mind were slowly taking back.
It started with a little understanding
Then came a little compassion.
Protecting and nurturing the child within
To find love for the man I was becoming.
No more labels, no more self-deprecation.
No more seeing myself
Through the eyes of others
Or walking a path not of my choosing.
Am I completely whole yet? No
But, as I always hope to be,
I am a beautiful original work in progress
And in this authenticity
I find that I am good enough