I’m Still Here Dammit! – Mister D
My name is Don or Mister D (for the old-timers). I’ve been running this site, Bootleg Betty, almost daily since October 9, 2002, and I feel I still have so much to do. I’d like to thank Nicola for taking the reigns of the Facebook Page. It’s good to know that there’s always something going on.
Anyway, I just wanted to apologize for going AWOL for awhile. I think I’ve only done that once before. No, I/m not going to slow it down. No, I’m not ready to retire, although it may be I might want to start looking for help to finish this project before I die. It’s just gotten too big for one person to undertake. Personally, I don’t think it will ever be finished. There’s so many things missing and you can always find more information than you thought, plus new ideas pop in your head constantly. Well, maybe not for you LOL, but it does for me.
The reason I’ve disappeared for some days, is simply because I’ve been battling some sickness since about April, and I’ve just had a string of Bad Luck than ever before. The good thing is I didn’t get depressed but maintained a positive outlook for the most part. You’d at least think I’d be bitchy!
I’m sure most of you don’t care about this shit (just get back to Bette), but I feel an obligation as to why I just dropped out. Ya’ll have been great to me over the almost 2 decades I/ve been up, so I feel it’s my duty to inform.
In April of this year, I lost my father and my dearest pet LeeLoo disappeared right out of the blue. She wasn’t even an outdoor cat, but she liked to go out with her brother every morning at 6:00 PM. He would go out wandering in the forest but she always stayed behind on the top step of the deck outside right by the door. I usually leave the door cracked so she can just come back in. She usually just comes and sits next to my computer while I work. But she didn’t come back. I looked and for some reason I had closed the door. I expected her to be right there, but she wasn’t. I looked for her everywhere for a week, and nothing. Her brother, which I had never had siblings, was just pathetic, like he lost one of his legs or something. I dont want to relive it, but he still acts funny and he’s adopted some of her mannerisms around me. Very interesting.
In all that, I never made it to my father’s funeral and I felt guilt, We had made out peace a few years ago. We weren’t close, so my mom said there really wasn’t any point to coming home. But I heard it was more like a celebration than a morbid affair. But still, I think it weighed on me heavily.
But to zip through this (if you want to ask questions, just comment, or write me. I was getting 14 migraines a week, I was extremely fatigued, vaguely numb on one side of my body, dizzy a lot, nauseous a lot, my stomach ached often, had horrible acid reflux, and sometimes when I walked, I couldn’t walk a straight line (don’t drink or do illegal drugs). Due to this, one day I fell backward out the shower, head first, busted my head, 6 stitches. Soon afterward I had so much pain in my torso, I had to call 911, ended up having my gallbladder taken out.
We all thought that would take care of the dizziness, the nausea, stomach ache, but fuck the migraines, nothing on them yet. Well the gall bladder op didn’t do much. Went to specialists, they couldn’t find anything, not even for why my right side was slightly numb.
I basically worked from the couch, but later had it moved away to a desk to try and encourage me to get up. I just worked on BLB less.
To make a long story shorter, I finally started doing research on myself. What happened ot changed around April? And it finally dawned on me. Doctors had doubled the dosage on 2 medicines that I took that didn’t present any side effects. Nobody thought to look at them again when they were doubled. I looked at their major side effects and I had every major one. I went back to my GP and he’s been weaning me off of them. I also made some major changes to my diet, and I’m getting stronger, am able to drive again, and do my own shopping.
The migraines are another story, but there’s some new things out now that look hopefull and I’m supposed to start them in a couple of days.
I’m sad to say that Barry and I have split after 35 years, too. iT’s been in the process for a good 5 years. I didn’t handle it well at all, We;ve been together since we were kids, and I happen to be the most romantic and emotional one. He actually moved out 5 years ago, but he would spend 3 nights with me until I could adjust, Eventually, it was I that said you don’t have to stay anymore. That has been the most devastating thing in my life, I dont want to go near the gay scene anymore. I’ve kind of reverted back to the nerdish things I was into as a child. I love to read, cuddle with my cats, I have a few friends, and that’s all I need. Barry and I are best friends. I know I will always be Number One in his book and vice versa. We talk and text everyday, and he still comes by to check on me twice a week.
I haven’t decided to give up on guys, I feel to young, but I can;t imagine it being anything more than a NSA relationship or FWB LOL Yes, old people still get horny!
Thank you, if you got this far, I will probably start posting again tomorrow, There may be some old things coming through but thats for me to have a record of….
Much love, Don aka Mister D