Hey guys and dolls or vice versa: Thanks to those who wrote and gave me input. Wow, I heard from new people and people I thought dropped off the planet, so to speak.
Anyway, I really appreciate it, and I think everyone who wanted to write…well you don’t really have to. I think all of us basically have the same idea…I wanted to see if I had my pulse on things and I would give myself and “A”…LOL
I’m going to try and get back with some of you on the personal stuff. Please be patient with me…I’m trying hard to get my balance here…talking bout my life ya’ll 🙂
I have been meaning to address some issues with all of you, but have not felt comfortable about it. As I approach the BIG 5-0 I’m crossing over to the other side of worrying which is somewhat akin to the “I don’t care” attitude, although that’s not quite the phrase I’m looking for….it’s not that harsh. I do care, but I can’t think of what it is I’m trying to say….Oh screw it, I don’t care and I don’t give a shit!!!! 🙂 Just kidding, but maybe some of the elders in the group know what I’m talking about.
Anywho…after I get the updates done tonight, I’ll try to have a heart to heart with all of you.
This site was started for many reasons, but it is you, the readers, that have kept it alive, and it is you, the readers, that I serve. Now, that may sound corny and trite, but if you take the time to reflect on that, you will see what I say is true.
I have held back on certain things because I thought it was prudent at the time, but I was never told by anyone that I couldn’t discuss or print things. A lot of stuff has happened to me over a short period of time and it is safe to say that it has taken a while for me to adjust, stay focused, and stay true to myself…all at the same time…
I will say I’m not the typical Bette fan…yes, I’ve followed her career for somewhat over 34 years now??? I can’t keep track anymore. Saying that, I will say that the urge to meet her was never there for me…I never gave it any thought until I went to my first Hulaween and even then I wouldn’t go up to her. For me, it wasn’t a matter of being afraid of her, it was more a matter of whether meeting her would destroy the image or more succinctly put…the myth. A lot of money goes into image as we all know….sometimes, with someone as talented as Ms. Midler, image spills over into myth. Meeting and talking with her on several occasions (and it was by request, but not from me) I was able to see several sides of her that most people aren’t privy to when meeting with her at a fundraiser or a quickie hello backstage. (This is not to take away from anybody else’s experience. I was told that what happened was “out of the ordinary”) I should have put my foot in my mouth several times, but I didn’t, and it made one of our encounters quite interesting, to say the least. And no, my image of her didn’t decrease…I really admire her more and found out she is quite passionate about things outside of her career…I would say she almost seems like she is more into her philanthropy moreso than her career. But that’s just supposition on my part. But I would be dishonest if I said the myth was left untouched. No human can live up to that and stay grounded. That’s why she made the Divine Miss M a character. We see that in everything she does, but you can’t keep that going 24 hours a day and be real. I was able to see some of the real Bette and I liked that and it’s something that no one can take away from me.
I know some of you won’t understand what I just said, and that’s okay. Some may even write and say they’ll cut my balls off…well, go for it, but I’ve been threatened with worse….I’ve been called every name in the book, had my motives questioned, but it usually just boils down to “envy” and those that feel “entitled” for some reason or another. All I have to say is that there is no reason to feel envy and there is absolutley no one who is entitled to anything. It was just a freakish accident! 🙂
Looks like I got off on a tangent, but I just wanted to open up a little so you’ll know where I’m coming from later on…and I just realized that I may win a drama queen award for this post….after reviewing it…
Well, I have to go back to work. Thank you for the input, once again, and I look forward to sharing with you what I’m attempting to do…
Love, Mister D
PS: And, no, I don’t feel special or that I’m better than anybody. Those who really know me would laugh at just the thought of that. But I do like sharing in my good fortune. That is something that has been a constant in my life…
I’d also like to add that it is almost impossible to get on my bad side. Some have worked hard to achieve that goal, but it usually back fires, but it’s fun to watch…their biggest downfall….pride and ego…nothing more. And that’s always something that can be worked on once recognized–it’s just a matter of being truthful with yourself and some self-discipline….I think it’s called “selflessness”